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Wanna update this space but I keep typing and deleting the words.

Have no idea what to blog about unlike the past where I can just

type anything that comes into my mind and talk about freely.......

So once in awhile I'll just come back and type some rubbish and then

abandon this space again for at least 12 months or so haha.

I'll be backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~

Till then.

最后还是被你狠狠的抛下了。

不开心

又有谁能理解和体谅我的心情呢？
表面上很快乐但其实心里很不开心。
我好想哭，大声的哭一场，哭完了一切就变好了。
我真的真的好不开心却又不能跟任何人说。

每一次无伦吵什么架结果还是我输。
就算理由是我对的还是你心情不好乱发脾气，
结果还是我先向你道低声道歉。
这两年来我都尽量包容你，让给你，体谅你，
你说一就一，二就二，我不会跟你顶嘴。
你每次都狠狠的骂我，大声的喊我把我骂到那么凶那么惨，
结果我还是觉得是我的错把你给惹生气所以会先向你道歉。
每次吵架你从来不跟我道歉先，不哄我也不会来找我，
反而是我做这些男人应该做的事情。
每次吵架你都会提出分手，而我会求你在给我们多一个机会。
我重来没提出过分手是因为我太爱你不想失去你，
也不想失去这份感情。我真的很珍惜这份感情可是你知道吗？
每一次吵架你都想离开我，重来没考虑过我的心情和感受。
你每次都会先转身离开抛下我一个人，而我每次都会看着你的背影离开。

我不知道我能撑多久，但我真希望你会知道我的感受……
我真的真的真的好伤心……
我也是人，人总是会累的。
我害怕有一天我不想在为这份感情奋斗了，
因为我已经把我的全心全意都给你和这份感情。
我总是不了解 如果我是你最爱的人那你不是应该好好的保护和爱我吗？
为什么你反而好像在把我当成你的敌人似的。

32 months ++

Wow........... Been almost 3 years since my last update
and I've decided to return to this little space of mine to say hi again.
I doubt there'd even be a single soul who'd come by and read which is good...... 🤔
Cus I just wanna keep this space to myself private like a personal diary haha.

Looking back, I realize I have really grown a lot. Like really A LOT.
In terms of mindset, maturity, looks, behaviors, attitudes, etc etc.
Whenever I read back my past posts I really feel like punching myself in the face LOL.
Like what the fuck was I even typing or thinking?!! 😳
Well I'm embarrassed and ashamed to admit I was childish back then hahaha.
But oh well I was only 12 to 17 years old???? 😳

Almost 3 years have passed and I must admit I do regret
not updating this space daily like how I used to.
Typing out my daily activities or routine, thoughts and feelings
and posting random pix here and there.
Because it's only until now that I realized that when I'm older
I can just simply read back and reminiscence on the older days.
Haisssssss but it's ok.

But I am glad to say I am currently very contended with my life.
I always believe everything happens for a reason and the Chinese saying
“旧的不去 新的不来” and it's true.
I still remember 3 years ago, the first 9 months after the breakup were hell to me.
But after all I still overcame it because life fucking goes on. 😊

Okay, it's 3:10am now and I should turn in soon and hug the love of my life to sleep x.
Goodnight 🌚

Goodbye

Time heals all wounds.


Till then, my little space and diary.

Miss R

I think there's an overdose of pictures of Miss R every now and then
but that's how we usually spend our Sundays,
washing and cleaning her till she's sparkly clean.
And besides I don't take much pix everywhere I go cos I'm not the sort who would.

Keepsake